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Have you noticed that some people don't give A damn and just keep on shopping?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I want to live in the calmness of the morning light.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He tried not to laugh, but he wasn't good at controlling all the laughter that lived inside of him.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Turning on the radio and just sitting there was my version of praying.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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You could smell the rain in the desert even before a drop fell. I closed my eyes. I held my hand out and felt the first drop. It was like a kiss. The sky was kissing me.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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On the outside, he was back to his old self. Only, I knew there was a wound living inside him, and that wound wasn’t going away anytime soon.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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That was the day that my brother was in our house again. In a strange and inexplicable way, my brother had come home.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I guess that was going to be my new thing. I couldn't exactly storm away in anger. I'd just have to close my eyes and shut out the universe.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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All I knew is that sometimes my father was sad. I hated that he was sad. It made me sad too. I didn't like sad.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Maybe the difference between being a boy and being a man is that boys couldn’t control the awful things they sometimes felt. And men could. That afternoon, I was just a boy. Not even close to being a man.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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That’s the way it was when you loved someone. You took them everywhere you went—whether they were alive or not.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I don't like remembering. Remembering makes me feel things. I don't like to feel things. I'm thinking I could spend the rest of my life becoming an expert at forgetting
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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When something gets broken, it can be fixed.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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His shoes on the front porch before he came inside. The Japanese do that. They don’t bring the dirt of the world into another person’s house.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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People talk to dogs. Not that they understand. But maybe they understand enough.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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The world was so silent. There was a barrier between me and the world, and I thought for a moment that the world had never wanted me and now it was taking the opportunity to get rid of me.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He’d run and run until his heart burst into flames. And he would become nothing but ash. No body, no heart, no bone, no flesh—just carbon matter scattering in the wind.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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For no reason at all, he thought that she looked like a nun. The beautiful kind. The kind that gave and gave because that’s what they knew how to do. And the giving made them more beautiful.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Maggie was scratching at the door. I let her in. And then I thought that maybe life was like that—there would always be something scratching at the door. And whatever was scratching would just scratch and scratch until you opened the door.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Okay is just a word I use so I won't have to talk about what's inside. Okay is a word that means I am going to keep my secrets.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Don’t, amor. Te adoro. I’ve already lost a son. I’m not going to lose another. You’re not alone, Ari. I know it feels that way. But you’re not.” “How can you love me so much?” “How could I not love you? You’re the most beautiful boy in the world.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Sometimes I think my father has all these scars. On his heart. In his head. All over. It’s not such an easy thing to be the son of a man who’s been to war.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She was a counselor, a therapist, a beautiful woman. He was nothing. That’s what he was.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Because when you do something, you have to know exactly what you're doing. No one knows exactly what they're doing. That's because people are lazy and undisciplined.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
