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And then Fito sort of hung his head and he was blinking his eyes, like he was trying to blink away all the tears that he’d held inside all his life.
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When something gets broken, it can be fixed.
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You are what you remember.
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People talk to dogs. Not that they understand. But maybe they understand enough.
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That’s how she loved people—by feeding them.
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She was a counselor, a therapist, a beautiful woman. He was nothing. That’s what he was.
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Had a theory that everyone has a relationship with words—whether they know it or not. It’s just that everybody’s relationship with words is different.
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We'd been so sure of ourselves, but now we were lost.
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Right then I witnessed the world they lived in go completely silent. The world was flooding with their tears.
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I want to live in the calmness of the morning light.
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A country will never love you like a woman.
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I closed my eyes and let the water rush over me and I wondered what it would be like to be as soft as water, to make people clean, to quench people's thirst. That would be a beautiful thing, to be like water.
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And even though rain was a miracle because this was the desert, that night it was not a miracle because the rain sounded like a thief trying to break into the house.
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Some people are so beautiful that they belong everywhere they go.
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I felt like I was the saddest boy in the universe. Summer had come and gone. Summer had come and gone. And the world was ending.
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My life was still someone else's idea.
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The problem with parents is that they're adults.
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Sam had once told him that the shape of the human heart changed every time it loved someone.
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See, the thing about guys is that I didn't really care to be around them. I mean, guys really made me uncomfortable. I don't know why, not exactly. I just, I don't know, I just didn't belong. I think it embarrassed the hell out of me that I was a guy. And it really depressed me that there was the distinct possibility that I was going to grow up and be like one of those assholes.
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Grace, too, gives me hope. She is still so beautiful. She shaved her head, and I can see the sun there.
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And then I just couldn’t stand it anymore, and I took Fito’s fists and I was stronger than he was, and I held his arms and kept him from hitting himself. And then I just pulled him in to me, and I held him and he cried and he cried and he cried. And I couldn’t do anything about all the hurt, but I could hold him.
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Turning the pages patiently in search of meanings.
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Salvation is too heavy a load for a child to carry.
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And then we all just started laughing. We laughed our asses off. But I knew that really, all three of us were crying. And I knew there would be tears inside of us all our lives. Because they just left. We were even worth a good-bye. Yeah, there would always be tears inside of us. Because there was an empty space inside the three of us that would always belong to the parent who had refused to love us.
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