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Senior year. And then life. Maybe that's the way it worked. High school was just a prologue to the real novel. Everybody got to write you -- but when you graduated, you got to write yourself. At graduation you got to collect your teacher's pens and your parents' pens and you got your own pen. And you could do all the writing. Yeah. Wouldn't that be sweet?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Tears. They’re like seeds in a watermelon. Good for spitting out.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She was staring at a picture of me and Sam when we were seven. No front teeth. We were standing in the front yard. It was summer and the leaves of her mulberry tree were behind us. The caption read: She was always my sister.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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We don’t always do the right things, you know? We don’t always say the right things.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I watched her and her Aunt Lina stare at each other for what seemed a long time. Something was being said. Something important. Something that had to be said without words.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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All the hovering angels were gone. He thought maybe there had been a funeral. Someone had died. Everything was black—the sky, the clothes he was wearing, his heart.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I’m fighting myself. I know I am. One minute I want to remember. The next minute I want to live in the land of forgetting. One minute I want to feel. The next minute I never want to feel ever again.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Andrés Segovia is looking up at the morning sky. Tears are streaming from his eyes. He wants to live in this sun all the days of his life. He is suddenly afraid of spending years and years in prison. Perhaps he deserves to be punished. But in this one second of clarity, he wants to become that old word he heard long ago. Emancipated. He is thinking that he will never be worthy of that word.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I like the old words better. They're like old friends.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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On the other hand, Uncle Mickey liked to say that everybody deserved a day off from the truth.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I never ask him anything about the war. I guess it’s something he has to keep to himself. Maybe it’s a terrible thing, to keep a war to yourself. But maybe that’s the way it has to be.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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We looked at each other. We didn’t really smile. But we were smiling at each other on the inside.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Why do you like to cuss? Everybody likes to cuss. I don’t. They don’t call you Mr. Excitement for nothing.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I'm an ex-Catholic priest. I have such a complex relationship to Catholicism. On the one hand, if I called myself a Catholic it would have to be a very unorthodox one, as I just don't believe all of the teachings of the Church. But on the other hand, I'm an educated man because the Catholic Church educated me. It gave me something that is really important to me. So I always think about my faith. I always have it, and sometimes I can't talk about it, and sometimes I can. I am like an adolescent in that way. Teens are asking questions: who is God and what does it mean to have faith?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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My father nodded. Ari, the problem isn't just that Dante's in love with you. The real problem--for you anyway--is that you're in love with him.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Young men and women come of age when they look at their parents and see them not only as their parents but as people. They gain a lot of compassion, and it's easier to accept their flaws.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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The world is being run by sober people--and it doesn't look like it's working out all that well.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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If summer was a book then I was going to write something beautiful in it. In my own handwriting. But I had no idea what to write.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Before I nodded off, I thought about what my dad had said—that life wasn’t all nice and neat like a book, and life didn’t have a plot filled with characters who said intelligent and beautiful things. But he wasn’t right about that. See, my dad said intelligent and beautiful things. And he was real. He was the most real thing in the entire world. So why couldn’t I be like him?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I can see that his heart is really numb. The heart can get really cold if all you’ve known is winter. I can see that his heart is really numb. The heart can get really cold if all you’ve known is winter.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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People don't always have to do the right thing for the right reasons—so long as they do the right thing.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Feeling sorry for myself was an art. I think a part of me liked doing that.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He’s so cute I would have thrown myself in front of a moving car too.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He started crying. Dante and his tears. Dante and his tears. You pushed me. You pushed me and you saved my life.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
