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I can see that his heart is really numb. The heart can get really cold if all you’ve known is winter. I can see that his heart is really numb. The heart can get really cold if all you’ve known is winter.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Tears. They’re like seeds in a watermelon. Good for spitting out.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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The world is being run by sober people--and it doesn't look like it's working out all that well.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Young men and women come of age when they look at their parents and see them not only as their parents but as people. They gain a lot of compassion, and it's easier to accept their flaws.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I'm an ex-Catholic priest. I have such a complex relationship to Catholicism. On the one hand, if I called myself a Catholic it would have to be a very unorthodox one, as I just don't believe all of the teachings of the Church. But on the other hand, I'm an educated man because the Catholic Church educated me. It gave me something that is really important to me. So I always think about my faith. I always have it, and sometimes I can't talk about it, and sometimes I can. I am like an adolescent in that way. Teens are asking questions: who is God and what does it mean to have faith?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I’ve expanded my vocabulary.” I nudged him. “I’m preparing for college.” “How many new words a day?” “You know, a few. I like the old words better. They’re like old friends.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He didn’t know anything about hummingbirds except that his father had told him that they liked to fight. So maybe you could like to fight and still be beautiful, like the hummingbirds.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Nobody wants to read happy stories.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He started crying. Dante and his tears. Dante and his tears. You pushed me. You pushed me and you saved my life.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Do you know what dead skin looks like when they take off a cast? That was my life, all that dead skin. It was strange to feel like the Ari I used to be. Except that wasn’t totally true. The Ari I used to be didn’t exist anymore. And the Ari I was becoming? He didn’t exist yet.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He’s so cute I would have thrown myself in front of a moving car too.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I wanted to feel those words in my mouth as I spoke them aloud. Words could be like food - they felt like something in your mouth. They tasted like something. Those words tasted bitter. But the worst part was that those words were living inside me. And they were leaking out of me. Words were not things you could control. Not always.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Summer was here again. Summer, summer, summer. I loved and hated summers. Summers had a logic all their own and they always brought something out in me. Summer was supposed to be about freedom and youth and no school and possibilities and adventure and exploration. Summer was a book of hope. That's why I loved and hated summers. Because they made me want to believe.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Your body is nothing but a money machine. That’s the way it is. We’re all just prostitutes.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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If summer was a book then I was going to write something beautiful in it. In my own handwriting. But I had no idea what to write.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She sounded a little angry. I loved her anger and wished I had more of it. Her anger was different than mine or my father’s. Her anger didn’t paralyze her.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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For a moment, I thought of the word happy and it was a word that just, well, it felt like it was visiting me. I knew it wouldn’t last for very long and I’d be sad again and then it would be worse because it’s one thing to be sad and it’s another thing to be sad once you’ve been happy. Being sad after you’ve been happy is the worst thing in the world.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I watched her hands as they worked the batter over with a wooden spoon. I wanted to kiss them.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She was staring at a picture of me and Sam when we were seven. No front teeth. We were standing in the front yard. It was summer and the leaves of her mulberry tree were behind us. The caption read: She was always my sister.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I never ask him anything about the war. I guess it’s something he has to keep to himself. Maybe it’s a terrible thing, to keep a war to yourself. But maybe that’s the way it has to be.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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People don't always have to do the right thing for the right reasons—so long as they do the right thing.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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You know what the worst thing about adults is? ...They're not always adults. But that's what I like about them.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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But how did you freeze a heart, the days and weeks and months that made a life?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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It would be so effen great if the whole world laughed more- the whole world. I don't mean the kind of laughing that's putting someone down. I mean the kind of laughing that means you've just discovered something really beautiful.
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