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Even in his damaged state, he could light up a room. He could fill it with a presence that was large and rare.
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He’s so cute I would have thrown myself in front of a moving car too.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I wanted to feel those words in my mouth as I spoke them aloud. Words could be like food—they felt like something in your mouth. They tasted like something. “My brother is in prison.” Those words tasted bitter.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Words exist only in theory. And then one ordinary day you run into a word that exists only in theory. And you meet it face to face. And then that word becomes someone you know. That word becomes someone you hate. And you take that word with you wherever you go. And you can't pretend it isn't there.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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People don't always have to do the right thing for the right reasons—so long as they do the right thing.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I hadn't even solved the mystery of my own body.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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All right, so we’re also all fucked up. But hey, you think sober people aren’t all fucked up? The world is being run by sober people—and it doesn’t look like it’s working out all that well.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Every generation thinks they’re the coolest canoe that’s ever come down the river.
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But how did you freeze a heart, the days and weeks and months that made a life?
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But my father, the man who was in my room and had turned on the light, he’d raised me. He’d tamed me with all the love that lived inside him.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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No wonder I stopped keeping a journal. It was like keeping a record of my own stupidity. Why would I want to do that? Why would I want to remind myself what an asshole I was?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She was staring at a picture of me and Sam when we were seven. No front teeth. We were standing in the front yard. It was summer and the leaves of her mulberry tree were behind us. The caption read: She was always my sister.
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It wasn’t always going to be morning, and darkness would come around again. The sun would rise, and then the sun would set. And there you were in the darkness again. If you didn’t whistle, the quiet and the dark would swallow you up. The thing is, I didn’t know how to whistle. I guessed I was going to have to learn.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Did anybody ever tell you that you weren't normal? Is that something I should aspire to?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Do you know what dead skin looks like when they take off a cast? That was my life, all that dead skin. It was strange to feel like the Ari I used to be. Except that wasn’t totally true. The Ari I used to be didn’t exist anymore. And the Ari I was becoming? He didn’t exist yet.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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You know what the worst thing about adults is? ...They're not always adults. But that's what I like about them.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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The summer sun was not meant for boys like me. Boys like me belonged to the rain.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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See, the thing about that word, Sharkey, the F-word, is that sometimes I make that word do too much work. I mean, I say that word as if it clearly articulates what I’m really feeling. And it doesn’t. It’s a shortcut.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I’d rather have a cup of coffee and a cigarette than live in all that honesty.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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This is my theory: the people who shouldn't hate themselves, do hate themselves. And the people who should hate themselves, don't hate themselves. The world is all backwards. See, this is one of the many reasons why God and I are not good friends.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I watched her hands as they worked the batter over with a wooden spoon. I wanted to kiss them.
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I don't know what the exact shape of my life will take--and what the days to come will bring--except i know that i am happy and my heart is still. I know that I have fallen in love with the word surrender and know that I can no longer live in disappointment.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I liked watching them, all three of them around my truck. I wanted time to stop because everything seemed so simple, Dante and Legs falling in love with each other, Dante's mom and dad remembering something about their youth as they examined my truck, and me, the proud owner. I had something of value– even if it was just a truck that brought out a sweet nostalgia in people. It was as if my eyes were a camera and I was photographing the moment, knowing that I would keep that photograph forever.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I prefer law to war under all circumstances.
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