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I mean, okay, let's say we're all going to get better. Let's just pretend we will. Fine. Where are we going to go after we get better? What are we going to do with all of our newfound healthy behaviors? Back out into the world that screwed us up and screwed us over. This does not sound promising.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I want to gather up all the words in the world and write them down on little pieces of paper—then throw them in the air. They would look like tiny sparrows flying toward the sun. Without all those words, the sky would be clear and perfect and blue. The deafening world would be beautiful in all that silence.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I watched her from the doorway. I wondered how it was that she came to be the owner of that rage. I wanted it for myself but there was nothing in me.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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A woman who was not afraid to die was not afraid of anything.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I hated God for giving me a heart. What good were they? Hearts? Having one got me exactly where?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I wanted to tell him not to cry anymore, tell him that what those boys did to that bird didn’t matter. But I knew it did matter. It mattered to Dante. And, anyway, it didn’t do any good to tell him not to cry because he needed to cry. That’s the way he was.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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We think there's a reason for everything, as if life was supposed to make sense. It's not exactly math. People aren't numbers. Everybody knows life doesn't make any sense at all, so we just better deal with the whole mess. Have a beer. Have a cup of coffee. Have a piece of cake. Go out to a movie. Enjoy the Popcorn.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I wondered what it would be like, to love a girl, to know how a girl thinks, to see the world through a girl's eyes. Maybe they knew more than boys. Maybe they understood things that boys could never understand.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Everyone expected something from me. Something I just couldn't give.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She does not know how to measure her life. When Sam was alive, she measured it through his love. She had always measured herself through the look in his eyes. She is afraid of admitting that to herself.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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There is a randomness to this ballet of death. This is the order of things. This is the secret to understanding the universe. Everything happens in an instant. Normalcy. And then apocalypse.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Stop it,” I said. “Just stop it!” I knew I was starting to cry and I was so sick, sick, sick to death of all those sad damned tears I had inside me. How could I have so many tears living there, in my body? How could they fit? When was it going to stop? When?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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There was a tear running down his cheek. It seemed like a river in the light of the setting sun.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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You’re such a school teacher.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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There are worse things in the world than a boy who likes to kiss other boys.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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What I wanted to tell her was that I didn’t care about sin or about God. I wanted to tell her that God was just a beautiful idea and I didn’t care about beautiful ideas and that He was just a word I hadn’t run into yet, hadn’t met yet, and so He was still a stranger. I wanted to tell her that she was real, and she was so much more beautiful than an idea.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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That was the way it was in the desert, the rain poured down then stopped. Just like that.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She sounded a little angry. I loved her anger and wished I had more of it. Her anger was different than mine or my father’s. Her anger didn’t paralyze her.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Mom had told me about that—she called it a dangerous light. It’s beautiful to look at, but it blinds people, she said, that kind of light. It’s not good to be out in it.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Maybe tears were something you caught. Like the flu.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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He drags it out of her, all those feelings she has.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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But maybe there isn’t a logic behind the word family. The truth is, it isn’t always such a good word.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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How could I have ever been ashamed of loving Dante Quintana?
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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It was like she understood something about me that she'd never quite understood before. I always felt that when she looked at me, she was trying to find me, trying to find out who I was. But it seemed at that moment that she saw me, that she knew me. But that confused me.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
