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He wanted to ask her how many men had fallen in love with her. But she wasn’t the kind of woman who let you ask that question.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Maybe my life isn't all that interesting but at least I'm busy. Busy doesn't mean happy. I know that. But at least I'm not bored. Being bored is the worst.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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That’s what his mother had told him, that Mexico tasted of maíz and the hands of the women who’d made tortillas for a thousand years.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I thought masturbating was embarassing. I didn't even know why. It just was. It was like having sex with yourself. Having sex with yourself was really weird. Autoeroticism.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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But in art class, all you had to do was try. I was getting an A for work. But not for talent. The story of my life.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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It was warm in the kitchen and I felt safe.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Moms and God generally get along pretty well.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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And he wished her anger would come back because she was strong when she was angry.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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The world did have too many words. The sound of the rain was all we needed.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Healthy people have healthy boundaries. Unhealthy people, well, let’s not get into that. It’s like this: some people have walls which means they let no one in. This equals unhealthy. Some people let everyone in and let themselves be stepped all over. This equals unhealthy.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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And why were the voices there, but he knew why and he knew they would always be there, the voices, knocking at his door, taking over his house.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I sat in the truck and had to force myself to rejoin the party. I hated parties—even the ones thrown in my honor.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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And then I knew that I would have to relearn the meaning of every word I had ever learned. I would have to learn how to translate all those words. Thousands of them. Millions of them. And then I smiled and felt the tears running down my face. Finally I understood. It wasn’t the words that mattered. It was me. I mattered. So now I would have to fight to translate myself back into the world of the living.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Sincere. You are. You take the world home with you every night.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Dogs were lucky—they didn’t need to live forever. They weren’t as greedy as people.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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She thinks that life is crueler and more beautiful than she had ever imagined.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Somehow I’d hoped that this would be the summer that I would discover that I was alive. The world my mom and dad said was out there waiting for me. That world doesn’t actually exist.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Absent parents aren't abusive per se. They're neglectful. They love in a very imperfect way. There are parents like that, and they do love their daughters and sons, but they're not parents in the way that we might think of it.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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When I see him today, I will show him my ugly heart. I’m not fucking sorry.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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I'll always hate shoes.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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Do you think, Ari, that love has anything to do with the secrets of the universe? I don’t know. Maybe.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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People love a show, especially when freaks are involved.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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They broke more than his ribs.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
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So I was the son of a man who had Vietnam living inside him. Yeah I had all kinds of reasons for feeling sorry for myself. Being fifteen didn't help. Sometimes I thought that being fifteen was the worst tragedy of all.
Benjamin Alire Saenz
